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Let me be honest.. life is not so great this week. On monday, I had a very bad gastritis that I ALMOST faint. As for today, I was suppose to go to Kuantan High Court for reinstatement application as well as land inquiry at Kuanta Land Office, but my father didn't allow me to. Reason wise? Risau. Hmm.. panjang cerita. Biarlah. But we are talking about bad repo here. Nasib senior partner faham and willing to swap position. Well, to tell the truth.. I need to go to Kuantan. In fact, I WANTED to go there, alone. Bila lagi nak travel jauh sorang-sorang, kan? Nasib tak ong!

Anyway, if you ever been to KL court, you will know that to go from one end to another end takes a lotttttt of patience. Especially for a person like me (knee recon yadayada). 1.2km ++ sayang oi. Ada matters depan Penolong Kanan Pendaftar Mahkamah Sessyen (which I don't have locus to appear) jadi kena mencari other lawyers to mention on behalf. Nak cari tu..bercinta! Susah kut. Selesai Mahkamah Sessyen, turun pulak pergi magistrate. Hadoihhh.. turun naik turun naik mahkamah itu sangat penat okeh. Memang betul.. kena berkampung kat kompleks tu.

Sometimes I deliberately skip meals because I'm too tired, or I don't feel like eating.. knowing that it would cause me trouble. Sometimes I feel like I don't have enough air to breathe and that my knee is getting weaker at some point. I have so many things to whine.. I have so many things to complaint or be mad at, this week. So many that I feel like processing the IELTS soonest possible and confirm the place, first thing tomorrow morning. Nasib baik teringat hanaBanana kata, "Relax lala, habiskan pupillage kita dulu.. tak lama dah. Sebulan lebih je lagi.. then we think about it."

Jadi aku sabar. Dan nasib baik, ada kawan-kawan gila yang nak melayan paramore-ing sampai pengsan.

Hafizhuddin yang tak sedar diri ada exam DCA lagi 2 minggu, demi kawan-kawan tercinta katanya. Haha. Kau ingat aku percaya? Kau memang kaki melalak kut.

Ignorance is the best if you wanna de-stress and if you do have a bunch of crazy friends like me. Go for ignorance. Bangun esok pagi pun belum tentu lagu tu hilang dari kepala. And I'm seriously going to Paramore live in KL. Haha.

Apart from that, at least, I do have these bunch of people to be happy about. Great friends to live with. Great friends to back me up.

And despite the fact that my knee is killing me and that I don't have locus to appear in Session Court.. I managed to settle all matters and be proud of myself! (even though I was a bit clumsy when i crashed the other firm's turn thinking that it was mine.. stupid me!)

I should be happy when I have personally been invited to 'open house Zulkaedah' by one lawyer that I knew through meetings in court for the past few months. Being in this profession, you know that it is a privilege to be invited by the senior lawyer when you are just some random pupil in chamber. You need to earn that privilege. Am happy.

and I guess..

my life is not THAT bad afterall.

lala.